Your expectations will never be reached. Your doubts will never push you. Your negativity will never surprise you, and most of all you’ll always be lied too. But we’d rather put ourself in these situations then accept that we don’t know what’s next. We fear the unknown more than we fear anything else. So we expect, assume, misjudge, over analyze all because we want answers. We want to “prepare” ourselves. 95% of the time you “prepare” it’ll still hurt, and you’ll still act brand new. You’re better off letting shit be, instead of digging yourself in a hole you’ll never get out of.
Now let me explain the situation.
I’ve been left caught up in anticipation.
They think they know my limitation.
But truth is they’re more into the infatuation.
I don’t chase them, nor replace em.
I speak my mind, don’t irritate em.
Look me in the eyes an tell me you ain’t mistaken?
This life you live caught up in past occasions.
Thinking back to how life was around distant imagination.
Looking back, like why the hell am I stuck in these stages.
Is it worth it, to walk away from these reoccurring dazes.
Or to look at what’s ahead and accept all those false allegations.
Those misinterpretations, left tears smearing upon your faceless, expression.
Now should I let this go, or should I remind myself why I’ve reached this location.
Don’t be the person you’re always to busy saving.
I write from time to time to not forget where I’ve came from.
Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It’s not about how much love you have in the beginning, but how much love you build ‘till the end. True love is not how you forgive, but how you forget. Not what you see, but what you feel. Not how you listen, but how you understand. And not how you let go, but how you hold on.
All my life everyone has told me I was bound to do something that would change the world, or at least make a difference. For 19 years I was searching for what it was going to be. Today, I can seriously stand before you and say it might not be the exact thing, but it’s the start of it. I found the start of what I’m suppose to do. Soon, you’ll see it too.
I’m a great public speaker, but just like those who are horrible at it..I also get all the symptoms before I open my mouth. Only difference is I look at it as my one shot to make a difference, everyone else is too caught up in being judged.
JUST because you and I are sharing a conversation about disney, doesn’t mean you won the battle of distracting me enough to avoid saying what I was trying to say BEFORE you cut me off because you don’t like being in the spotlight…so HA you lost.
“There’s just something about you, can’t quite put my finger on it. But I really like you, so I’m never ever ganna quit.”
If I had the power to freeze time, i’d freeze my whole day expect for the time I spend with you. The fact that you are yourself around me, with no hesitation or fear of me judging you. Like I shared with you earlier, who you are as a person is just so well put together. The way you carry yourself, approach a situation, pay so close attention to someone when they speak. The moment I lay eyes on you everything else has vanished. Picture a whole white room. No doors, no windows, no nothing, just a big white empty space. That’s what happens. The only thing in front of me is you and that is all that matters. There are no distractions, no miscommunications, no what if’s or I don’t knows. There is just you and I. You’re inner self is what has truly caught my full attention, and your outer shell was so damn well put together. When you smile and you make this face at me where your nose is scrunched up and your eyes kinda vanish. When you laugh and the first thing you immediately do is throw your hand over your mouth then burst out laughing. The most beautiful thing is knowing that when you’re with me you smile with every single part and organ of your body. Your touch is by far the softest feeling. The moment you grab hold of my hand or wrap your arms around me I get this feeling at the very bottom of my stomach. It’s a crazy feeling, but it’s also a warm feeling. Sometimes, I never want to let go only because the fact that I can vibe with you in silence makes every word ever said seem like an understatement. As a matter of fact a lot of things are becoming understatements. There are times when we’re sharing a conversation and you’ll stop and do your whole “..no? no? okay.” and I want to seriously just reach over, pull you close enough where our foreheads are touching and just close my eyes for a moment, and see if we’d be willing to take it to the next step, or enjoy that moment just how it is on it’s own. Where we are, is where I wanna be. I want to learn every single thing about you. I want to know the real you. I want you to want to share your story with me. I want to be your rock, as each time we have our late night get togethers and our random hangouts I dig myself deeper into this sand. I don’t plan on leaving anytime soon.
why are you so dammmmmmn……………………perfect.
Saying I enjoy your company is almost an understatement. I love the fact that I can look at you and catch you lip singing the same exact part I am at the moment. The fact that you’ll tell me how I’m officially one of the craziest drivers ever knowing that I’m really not that bad and you mad cause you can’t bust a four lane switch with swag. The fact that I can just watch you do you and it beats people watching by a long shot. While we were at my work and you started browsing around as I was talking to coworkers, I couldn’t help but watch you roam around. The way you carry yourself is by far one of the most attractive things about you, I’ll never get sick of mentioning that. The idea of introducing you to people as a friend, or even as something more is something I know I’d never have to worry about and that on it’s own is incredible. How you vibe with those that matter most is one of the most important things to me. It’s not about their approval, or any of that bullshit. I don’t need anyone to tell me who I can and can’t have around, let alone bring around. It’s about the fact that I know if I walked away for five minutes and left you with a friend or two, you wouldn’t have a problem conversing with them. It’d be almost like I was never around in the first place and they were your friends. The way we laugh at the littlest things. The fact that I can just look at you and that on it’s own brings a smile on my face. There’s so much more to this confession, yet I almost don’t know what else to write. I don’t want to spoil any moment with you, and I’m willing to grow with you. I’ll be your rock, anytime.