The Undefeated.

In about 6 hours my life will change. I know I might not feel it right away, but I’m definitely looking forward to it. After losing sight of truth, and being swallowed by the worst I know this next step in life will only help me grow better. I’m young enough to still make mistakes and at this point if people can’t forgive, then forget. There’s a lot of things that have happened in my life I do wish I could change but what’s done is done. I have some of the best people beside me, I have some of the best opportunities in front of me and I’m done being mad. I’m done hating myself for what has happened and what I’ve dealt with. I’m done blaming the world for what I’ve gone through. I’m done pushing myself away from everyone and everything because I’ve lost sight in myself. I’m done blaming myself for these things. I’m done hurting myself over past situations I can’t change, nor did I cause. I’m done being responsible for everyone else. I’m going to take my chances, live my life and stop hating myself. Stop worrying about everyone else’s needs and how they feel for me. In a way I’m glad all these trails have come in front of me. It’s reminded me that not everything is for certain and not everyone is for life. I’m blessed for who I have beside me and I’m blessed for the family that’s stuck by me. I pray every night that tomorrows my fresh start on this journey. I was blessed with a key, now it’s up to me to go open the door. I know I’ve hurt people and lost some along the way. I’ve accepted my actions and woken up from my misery. I’m not sitting here asking for you to forgive me yet, thank you. Thank you for being real with me, even if it was before you had to leave. I hope everyone takes the chance that changes their life. We all deserve a second chance. We all deserve to start fresh. I’m blessed for another year in this life, and I’m above all blessed to know God’s guiding my through this. Happy early birthday to me. Don’t give up, there’s a bright future coming ahead.