Lately, I’ve been at a state of mind to myself unable to express what I feel, how I feel or what I could have done for things to have ended up differently. I’ve been very distracted, my minds been nearly past the moon and back and through my mind I hear voices speaking to me. They ask me questions about how I feel, what I should do, what led to being stuck in this position to know that a dreams been snatched away from the palm of the hands because some people will never grow up and learn. Picture yourself closing a deal of a lifetime. Your hard work, sweat, and tears all tossed into a project you’ve dedicated your whole life too. Imagine someone just walking into the room and telling you “hey, I’m here to make your dreams come true. You got the plan and I got the money.” just reading that sentence just made you feel like a million bucks. Believe me, I damn sure as hell did when I received that phone call 4 months ago telling me “hey, we did it. It’s our time.” now being that I’ve already held in every bit of detail know that I’m now going to fast forward you to the end result. I’m going to skip the 4 month pass explanation and get straight to the part that leaves you to think twice. Looks, are the most deceiving thing a human being carries. No matter how long you’ve known someone, what you’ve done for them, and how much you believe they’ll hold you down, it’s not always peachy. Four months ago I could have told you I had the world in my hands. Today, I can tell you the world was taken from me. Eventually a person stood before me and said “it’s over, just like that all down the drain.” because some people don’t care about you, what you’ve done, or how supportive you are of them. All they care about is their ego, their money, and partying their life away. First of all, your ego is a joke. That voice in your head that’s filling you up will one day also turn against you and leave you with absolutely nothing but misery. Because a ego doesn’t give a fuck about anyone, not even you. All an ego cares about is the lifestyle they imagine and how to maintain it. The thing I learned about money, it comes and goes. If you lose money, you can make it back. If you make money, you can make more. It’s never a sure thing. Partying, eventually it makes you old, ugly, and out of touch with yourself. No matter how cool it was that so and so’s parents bought them drinks for their party might seem, eventually you think and go “damn, I’m really glad my parents aren’t like that.” because I know damn sure I wouldn’t be buying my kid drinks for some party. Here’s something about your ego you’ll never realize until you’ve lost everything. What makes a person human is feelings, emotions. Your ego, is not human. It will do the most ruthless things you never would want someone to do to you. That day, when you fall and your own ego leave you too you’ll be just a lost soul looking for love. In order to earn love you must give love. Mark my words, you wont be getting love for a while. So when people think they’ve hurt others, or fucked people over for shares, money, selfish, childish things they think they’ve done good. They think they’ve won. Truth is, you’ll never know what winning feels like because you’ve already lost from the beginning. You’ve lost yourself. So my suggestion to whoever may read this post, when these people think they’ve done you dirty and got away with it you remind them that without you they’re nothing. By any means necessary you show them just how successful you are and can be. Here’s the thing with egotistic people. They automatically think they’ve won, but they’ll never win. Be successful, because the greatest revenge in life is success.
So for the little birds sitting on the telephone pole laughing and thinking they’ve won, guess again. You think you’ve brought me down, you’ve only done damage for yourself by motivating me.